Wow where do I start? My marriage is over and I am ok with that but it is the patience that I need to get through the process - My husband was mentally abusive to me and when it got to the point I couldn't take it any more I did lash out and I did get physical and scratched his face and he called the police on me for hitting him and I went to jail - looking back I am thankful I did or I may not be typing this today, my husband has a history of violent crimes to others - of course I now have a restraining order and can't go to the house or have any contact with him, I left the house in my pj's so I have nothing but praise God I have a mother who needs my help and I am able to stay with her and start to rebuild. I know what I did was wrong and I am sorry for what I did and it is costing me dearly in more ways than one. I have to go to anger management classes now for 29 weeks and it cost me $40.00 a week, I have had to hire an attorney for the case and also for the divorce, I have had to purchase clothes and shoes for work and casual. I am anxious to get this over and I have been patient in waiting to get my things out of the house but it seems like there is one roadblock after another and I keep reminding myself that God is with me and he will not see me fail. Some of my Mother's things are in the house along with my son's and sister's and the things that were my Father's who passed away 4 years ago. I really haven't had any emotion over all of this either - haven't cried, gotten mad or anything - trying to just take it one day at a time but it is hard. I am a Christian and turn to God and pray for peace and patience but at times it gets realy hard. My Husband did say to me the night this happened "You always put the God stuff first and your family 2nd" I replied "yea - and?" I just need prayers right now for God's to give me Strength, patience, and remind me all the time that he is here with me. I need to know that he will see me through this whole process.
Posted on May 9, 2013 | Prayer Request